Friends to the rescue!

Ugh. Maybe it's hormones, maybe it's the fact that we just got two inches of snow dumped on us, but I have been bluer than blue today. I laid around for literally an hour before getting out of bed. I hate it! Yesterday and the day before, it hit me around 3 in the afternoon--I just became very tired and very sad all of a sudden, after having reasonably good days. It cleared up later in the evening, but really sucked for a few hours.

I would even call yesterday awesome. I taught my discussion sections and was alert, animated, and on the ball. We talked about Frankenstein, which is one of my favorites this semester, and one that requires less prep since I feel like I know how to best approach it in this class. Next week we are covering Darwin and my classes are meeting in the Natural History Museum. The professor is coming to observe, so I really hope it works out well. As long as my mood is good, it should rock.

But just when things seemed to be getting so much better, along comes today. I did get some work done this morning, but when it hits me like that, my brain sort of just shuts down and it's hard to get anything done. And then the crying. Oy. I cried because I miss Joe terribly, I cried because I'm not getting any work done, I cried because this thing seems to be ruining my life. Aidan is spending the weekend at my mom's so I can get work done, which makes it even more frustrating that I can't get much done. He got a grade card recently and his grades have gotten bad, and I just feel like a failure of a mom. I know I'm not really, but it is so hard when he needs a little extra attention and I have a little less than normal to give.

I thought I might get up and go to the gym today, or get out to a coffee shop, or maybe do some shopping, but the snow and my mood kinda shut down those plans. But I decided that I can't let this consume me, so I sent out an S.O.S. to some friends--some new friends, who I am so happy to know and lucky to have--and some of us are getting together tonight for dinner. I guess I could consider it a celebratory dinner now that the news about my GTA award nomination is out. Yay! I just wish I could get over this and enjoy my success a bit more.

p.s. I found a support group! I'm going to check it out Wednesday, thanks to another awesome friend, Melinda, watching Aidan for me. I am trying so hard to get better and I think that's the only thing that keeps me somewhat sane!!